strange things happen...strange emotions flood our minds...leaving no room for reason..sometimes...
you run after something with utter desperation...like there is no happiness without it in your life....that something becomes your obsession...your motivation ...your ambition...
and when you get it...a strange realization dawns upon you... that 'something' is not what you really want...its not really an answer to all the questions puzzling you till now....
is it because change is something you resist...is it that you feel that that 'something' was not so unattainable really...and so u start looking for a different goal....that poses greater challenge...
or is it that you want someone to tell you to stay put...someone to tell you that you are right...you so want that to happen..but ..!
thing dont happen the way you plan....the way you dream... the way you so desperately want...
there is no voice of reason you want to pay attention to...the only voice you want to hear is not audible...you try hard..harder..but all in vein....
life is not always that fair anyways..!!!
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{ A gentle breeze through the pine trees just reached to caress my shoulders.
I still remember the evenings of the summertime back my home.
Sitting on terrace.Watching the sun go down , adding hues to my life.
A boat still struggling to find the horizon, visible for sometime in the twilight
and getting lost somewhere.
Sailing to the horizon was my dream, since those days.
I wanted to have my own boat.My own sea and above all my own horizon.I wanted
to paint myself red with shadows on the sea.
Days passed i stepped out of my home, still fearing the sea.
I chose to watch the beauty from my terrace .I met a lot of people carrying their
nets and fishes caught in the day. People who went into sea near the shore and far into the sea.Some said it's fun some told the stories of tempest and the breeze, sorrows and hapiness .Finally i decided to start my venture. First time the waves were high and i decided to get back . While on the way back home, i thought about the waves , the fear and excitement
in the middle of sea.Was enough motivation to begin the journey.
Days passed , it wasn't easy rowing day and night .
Every day the horizon looked the same and the sun was still the same.But i kept on sailing.
I was all alone except some birds who perched on the mast of my ship.i loved when they chirped , break from monotonous sound of the sea.
One day when the wind was blowing .The mast of my ship broke. And journey became
more difficult -no one now.A hope kept me sailing.Distance berween me and the horizon
remained the same.
After few days i saw a ship coming back. While crossing my ship he
i asked him “How far is horizon ?” He smiled back and said “I found it some 6 miles from
this place.” I asked him with excitement “how was the view there?” .“magnificent”he answered with smile on his face.
With a new energy i started .After crossing some 8 miles horizon was still
the same.I was disappointed to sail further.With all the hopes crushed i started back.After
days of sailing i reached my home .Too tired .
One day in my town i met the person whom i met on my journey.
He recognized me and smiled at me. “ you found the horizon boy?” he asked.
“No i travelled more than you asked me too , and then i came back.”i answered with anger.
“and i know there is no place called horizon”
He smiled and answered “ i found my horizon there only may be yours was not there”. I was confused with that answer.
Today i'm again standing on my terrace once again watching the same ship
same hues of sunset. Birds who accompanied me on my journey. But sure something has
changed.My perception of the horizon. And the utopian place called horizon do exist believe me.} - vyas
Sometime your life is not yours, your dream are not yours. U see things around and all things which seem beautiful take the shape of your dream.It's your journey that gives u some insight into your inside, what exactly u want? That is the question u end up asking yourself.
I know most of us want to be in profession X. because X is seen with gr8 respect
in society. X earns enough to buy ruby tuesday dinners,drives in a long car and blah blah.
At the end of the day when you finish your dinner and are back after a drive in your car .
U want something else something big .But think in isolation of world , yours only
prespective , u will know wat u want . And most important don't hesitate to pursue
the voice of your soul .
Philosophy apart the best thing to do is set goals , when u achieve the goals reward yourself .do wat seems impossible , take long leave and explore new places never seen, involve yourself in adventures.Just breakfree. Let your inertia carry you.
“When u reach a mountaintop enjoi the breeze their, before u see a new peak - your next destination”
regards
vyas
p.s longest comment i ever posted ..
sorry for lot of typos
nice blog
r u really that confused?
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Hiii Ecolectrik... Just visited your blog... Well, I am not a blogger except for my company... I found that you write a lot and have many activities to do.. Awesome use of time which you have.. There is a lot to learn from your writings... Keep it up... Rgds
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