somewhere i belong.....

"i wanna heal i wanna feel...............wat i found was never real....i wanna let go of the pain i felt so long...................i will break away........i will find myself today"
how i identify with the wordings of this song.........
not come across a song with as much depth as this since along long time......
only that i dont wanna sing it 5 yrs from now...
having 'found'myself finally..........

TOO MANY....

Too many spelling mistakes in last blog...
wen will i learn to type fast with 100% accuracy??????????

MEDIA MATTERS.....

I am an avid follower of politics.....be it indian politics or world politics......
a recent incident and the amount of unnecessary media coverage it received substantiated my concerns about indian media turning saffron...
indian media since the days of BJP govt , towed the line of people in power ... following their dictats, and thereby forcing the " un intelligent" ,"gullible" and impressionalbe indian populace to feel india shining brightly in the sky..........oh well!!
even after the voters rejected the falsifying myth of india shine.... even after millions of indians suffering from deprivation did not accept the analogy drawn between happy nation and rising sensex.........the great indian media wont budge from its stand....numbed from wat they perceived as an utterly unexpected incident.... as if!!

so lemme come to the point.. recently in a desperate attempt to get himself a makeover of the secular variety (' jassi 's contribution to the circus they call politics..) mr advani went on a flip flop yet again.... praising the masiha of hindu nationalists shyamaprasad mukherjee at a public function...... what is he trying to prove...putting a mask and unmasking himself..interesting juxtaposition..he needs a break from underestimating the intelligence of indian voters.... advani and his ilk an their credentials need no more exposure........ the majoritorian politics is his brainchild..an is pursued with immense faith by another joker of the hindu variety -- praveen togaria....as if media is so innocent to not be able to see thru the game......

another man who is attracting too much of media limelight is rss cheif k.s sudarshan... wat is his base an from where does he draw mass support is the stuff to be researched...it is amusing for me to see every single crap uttered by him becomes a page 1 news item...let the poverty deaths an other stories of public concern go down the drains.....wat is the reason behind this warped sensibility that media suffers from????????
more to say...
in the next blog maybe....

AMBITIONS!!!

THER COMES A TIME IN OUR LIVES... wen we have to make a decision...'bout the paths we choose an the careers we select..... for me things went smoothly till the TIME arrived.. yes i had to decide wat i wanted to do --- engineering, medicine or anything else of less concequence(in da words of my ENLIGHTENED teachers from school)... the fact that i had topped my school in 10 th was an added concern... but the thickskinned that i am decided to take up the subject i loved the most--HISTORY..to the shock of my history teacher!!(imagine?!)...so took up humanities and limited my options.....this was one decision i dont know whether to regret or be happy about?????
rest in another blog...

LIFE LESS!!

STRUGLLIN wid MS excel........
go grant me some peace...

back to life???

life acts funny at times..... here i am slogin my ass at the library jottin arbit amendments and feelin terribly low......and there ir expects me to key everythin in an still not understanding as to wat i am really learnin......well part of her concerns arent wrong.... i am expected to slog it out to write a term paper(hell! did anyone thought u learn anythin in doin such a thing)...so to sum it up i didnt really learn anything at this so called summer internship , but slogging it out for nothin..(my life SUCKS!!).....
Meanwhile one whole year at JNU & not turned LEFTIST... shocking by any standards....left ideology has no problem... the real problem begins with execution.....how do u prevent the dependence on MNCs without havin indian firms do well in the concerned sector.... it was fashionable to support the exit of NESCAFE but to allow MNCs coming into the campus for recruitment speaks volumes of the inherent hypocricy that left ideology all over the world suffers from.....as if mikhail gorbachev doin an ad for Mc donald was'nt a sign...... left in JNU to me seems to profess what I term as regression---stagnation---perpetual doom..... they glamorize poverty--the pain of deprivation.... to these MONA DASes WHO dont even bother to pay their mess bills on time(her name figured inda LIST) , the real pain behind poverty is too glamorous to be left alone... they r content with livin a life of modst means--teachin in some arbit college in some arbit lace on earth.... so haow the hell they end up upliftin the poor remains a big question mark.......or they join some NGO whose lifeline is da money pumped into india by some foreign agency(whose source will undoubtedly be the corporates)... so does someone have da intelligence to ask these self proclaimed champions of humanity about their contribution to society in the vocations they choose after studies........
so much to writ ...
some other time....

BACK TO LIFE

after 8 hrs of killin schedule in office......this is my fav time....in front of my comp.......listenin to linkin park..........& doin wat i always wanted to do..........HELL!! writin a blog.............'tis a confusin time for me...really dunno wat to do ????wen i dont get time for gre study in office....is undoubtedly da most frustratin day for me..............
god save me!!