Thats Tuck School.. I had seen the picture of this structure so many times..Just that when I actually stood there..things felt different..and great!!

Day 2 at Tuck was hectic..I loved the classes on Analysis for General Managers and Leading teams! The case study method is brilliant in extracting the spirit of intellectual inquiry from students..The classes seem like an Opera performance...The case is left open for discussion and the professor "cold calls" students to bring out the relevant details and the gist of the case.. The entire conversation and discussion is carried out by the students with the prof managing the stage! It is so exciting to hear the numerous perspectives on one single thing in class.. I feel that the "learning process" will be critical to skill building in these two years.. Its heavily geared around forcing you to think and make decisions like a business leader...Things are super hectic! But I feel that the journey is going to be very rewarding!!

The Tuck Tails - week 2

This may be the most abrupt first post for a blog, but I just could not resist the temptation of documenting my first pangs of nervousness in a business school. This is week two for Tuck Class of 2011 and the beginning of a journey consisting of academic pursuits, skill building, career search and a numerous other things to seek which people like myself left well cushioned jobs during these tough times and decided to spend time in woods. 1st week was exciting and felt like a roller coaster ride and the second week promises more in terms of rigor. This is sunday night and I am trying to finish reading stuff to be discussed in the class on Tuesday. Business school is a fun place for sure!

Coming back to not being as abrupt! I started this blog to document my experiences at the Tuck School of Business. I belong to the class of 2011 and started with the program just a week back (though it feels like months have already passed!) More to follow on my Tuck experience and I pray that i remain as punctual with blogging as I really want to be :)

the labyrinth

disappointments..one meets this wretched old lady routinely while finding the way out through the labyrinth of life...

there are highs then there are lows... the lows make you feel like you never saw any high...like the nature has persistently been conspiring against you...like no one wants to see you happy... you touch the nadir...

Its only after a while that the realization dawns upon you...that you yourself are the cause of that low... you 'expect' too much.... you expected too much from yourself... you expected too much from the people around you..your friends, loved ones, from people you thought would fulfill them to the best of their abilities... You expected more than what could be delivered.....

Great..so you learn to lower your expectations..you feel better...you explore newer things...move on and erase the low phase from your memory..its strange how human mind works and how resurgent we can be.... we forget the disappointments...

Then comes the phase of highs..we had expectations lowered...so we dont expect much from any one , from ourselves or anything....and if these same expectations are surpassed... we feel a sense of achievement...feeling of eternal bliss...we feel utterly blessed... we realize that the world around us is so beautiful...the people in our lives are so nice....every thing seems rosy....success becomes a habit...there is only one thing around - happiness!


Then we make the same mistake... raise expectations... out memories are anyways short and we conveniently suffer from selective amnesia...what had happened in the past will not happen again with us...thats what we tell ourselves and move forward...

And then yet again..one fine day we trip..and fall into that low which we emerged from many a days back... it all comes back... we feel like a fool for having made the same mistakes...for having created the scenario for that low we so wanted to avoid...we cry...we hate every thing around us...more than anything..we hate ourselves...for not having learnt the lessons well enough last time....


The highs and the lows just continue..endlessly...throughout ones life...its a labyrinth...we are in the quest of that eternal bliss...but keep shuttling between the nadir and acme which make life interesting and sometimes a bit strange...

alive and kicking!

Yes.. i am alive and kicking..!

After a hiatus of one and a half years..i decided to scribble on my blog again...

A lot has happened since i last posted..

switched jobs.... traveled to far off lands...met diverse set of people... learnt some things..unlearnt others....

i learnt that I can travel all by my self and have a lot of fun at that :)

discovered Bryan adams :) Yes i wonder why i never liked him while in school....

learnt to cook when I had just myself to fend for in an alien land...not bad !!

realized that gambling isnt meant for me :D

found the resilience in me which I doubted at times was dead...

Awesome year! loved every bit of it...despite the nadir and acme...the ups and downs...a year which opened my eyes to myriad things new and taught me to discard the old.....


ok..so i have learnt a lot and discovered new things..then why cant i learn to be regular with my blog :D
i will try my friends..i will try..!!

Fear of the 'DARK'...!!!

"I am a man who walks alone

And when I'm walking a dark road

At night or strolling through the park

When the light begins to change

I sometimes feel a little strange

A little anxious when it's dark."

('Fear of the Dark-Iron Maiden)

Do I fear the dark...Dark being the unknown..the path not treaded...the world not explored...??!!!

Do I fear change...change being movement away from stagnation...movement away from status quo...???

I guess I do..!!!

It is human tendency to be wary of the unknown..All the myths and fantasies across civilizations attempt to explain the latter....

It is also a human tendency to resist change....History bears testimony to this...the stagnation of the medieval period and the subsequent resistance to a movement towards 'rebirth' or 'renaissance' documents a very good exapmple of this very human trait....

So , with all the historical burden can I be any different...

Changes bothered me since a very young age....ensconced comfortably in a particular lifestyle...i hated it when I had to shift to another city..another school..owing to my dad's transferable job....

Changes bother me a lot more now... shifting base for higher studies or a new job is something that instills in me apprehension...the fear of the unknown overpowers my sensibilities....the pragmatic side of me loses to the unyielding side which breeds on inertia and stagnation....is stagnation more powerful than change??? or is resistance a painful process???

The sense of ennui should ideally fuel the desire for adventure... on the contrary..i seem to be enjoying banality... I guess it is to do with absence of passion to do things lately....

I was very passionate about dancing...reading....writing..at different points of time...

Dunno when and how I lost interest in all the three.... Writing used to give me a lot of satisfaction...it was a stimulant, inspiring me to do things... Where did I lose track.....??!!

Instead of repenting, I should mend my ways now...

So even though stagnation was all pervasive till now... the realization that change is always for the good and thoroughly required should mark a new beginning....

Let me tread the path of renaissance by trying ot get up early tomorrow...(it seems very difficult at the outset- resistance afterall is a painful process..!!!)

Inertia...

strange things happen...strange emotions flood our minds...leaving no room for reason..sometimes...

you run after something with utter desperation...like there is no happiness without it in your life....that something becomes your obsession...your motivation ...your ambition...

and when you get it...a strange realization dawns upon you... that 'something' is not what you really want...its not really an answer to all the questions puzzling you till now....

is it because change is something you resist...is it that you feel that that 'something' was not so unattainable really...and so u start looking for a different goal....that poses greater challenge...

or is it that you want someone to tell you to stay put...someone to tell you that you are right...you so want that to happen..but ..!

thing dont happen the way you plan....the way you dream... the way you so desperately want...

there is no voice of reason you want to pay attention to...the only voice you want to hear is not audible...you try hard..harder..but all in vein....

life is not always that fair anyways..!!!

wake up from slumber..!! and smell the coffee..!!!!

It has been ages since i last scribbled anything..anywhere... It is a sign of intellectual bankruptcy..a sign of falling in love with banality..it is a sign of nothing but sheer stagnation...

yes.. it is ..indeed..

my last post was based on 'self doubt'... this phase has prolonged way too much now...I am still hunting for an answer..which for some reason continues to elude me... !!

The last 10 months have been very eventful for me... got masters degree..joined a job..moved to a new city..wilth anticipation..expectations..learnt a lot..faced challenges..frustrations..and stagnation..!!

Many times I toyed with the idea of writing on numerous issues that kept cropping...but just didnt gather enough motivation... lack of motivation isnt a healthy sign..

so now i shall be regular with blogging... i hope i can ... i need to be so.. truly..!!

amen.!