the labyrinth

disappointments..one meets this wretched old lady routinely while finding the way out through the labyrinth of life...

there are highs then there are lows... the lows make you feel like you never saw any high...like the nature has persistently been conspiring against you...like no one wants to see you happy... you touch the nadir...

Its only after a while that the realization dawns upon you...that you yourself are the cause of that low... you 'expect' too much.... you expected too much from yourself... you expected too much from the people around you..your friends, loved ones, from people you thought would fulfill them to the best of their abilities... You expected more than what could be delivered.....

Great..so you learn to lower your expectations..you feel better...you explore newer things...move on and erase the low phase from your memory..its strange how human mind works and how resurgent we can be.... we forget the disappointments...

Then comes the phase of highs..we had expectations lowered...so we dont expect much from any one , from ourselves or anything....and if these same expectations are surpassed... we feel a sense of achievement...feeling of eternal bliss...we feel utterly blessed... we realize that the world around us is so beautiful...the people in our lives are so nice....every thing seems rosy....success becomes a habit...there is only one thing around - happiness!


Then we make the same mistake... raise expectations... out memories are anyways short and we conveniently suffer from selective amnesia...what had happened in the past will not happen again with us...thats what we tell ourselves and move forward...

And then yet again..one fine day we trip..and fall into that low which we emerged from many a days back... it all comes back... we feel like a fool for having made the same mistakes...for having created the scenario for that low we so wanted to avoid...we cry...we hate every thing around us...more than anything..we hate ourselves...for not having learnt the lessons well enough last time....


The highs and the lows just continue..endlessly...throughout ones life...its a labyrinth...we are in the quest of that eternal bliss...but keep shuttling between the nadir and acme which make life interesting and sometimes a bit strange...